The past couple weeks have been a mess of really good stuff and not-so-good stuff. Last week I caught a computer virus. I had a final in two days and my poor little computer was moving about as fast as a carrier pigeon. It was extremely uncool. Lucky for me, I have my own personal computer guru to fix these things. Not so lucky for me- it required reloading the entire computer. This means that any passwords I had stored were MIA and I’ve spent days going to all my websites and trying to remember how to simply sign in. I was able to take finals however with only one small snag that was easily repairable.
I’ve picked up some hours at work which is happy for the bank account and necessary in order to continue living the life I lead (it seems landlords like it when you pay rent) but not so happy for my stress-o-meter. Work itself isn’t really stressful, it’s not like I’m an air traffic controller or anything, but keeping myself sane in the soap opera world that my fellow employees enjoy is enough to make anyone want to beat their head against a wall!
Had interviews for internships, all is well in that arena. Apparently people want me to work for them, so I found one that is acceptable. Let’s all hope I made the right choice!
I have this boy that runs through the background of my life that is putting me in this nice hazy rose colored world. I’m starting to think I might not really be the burned out cynic that I was playing so well, my old innocent romantic is exercising eminent domain anyway. This makes me happy for so many reasons.
I’m just an all around happy person now. The minute the last final was over and I walked out of the building, I felt the stress just drain right out. I’ve been out partying a bit just to celebrate, but I’ve also been sitting outside soaking up the spring warmth and checking out the flowers. The weather has been perfect and I’ve been walking around my neighborhood checking out the old buildings and picking up iced chai. I love this time of year, everything looks pretty, the silver lining is easy to find, and I feel comfy in my skin.
I’m glad you’re back to hoping. I knew you were going to roll around to it eventually:)
It’s amazing when the cynicism starts to disappear, isn’t it?
Don’t get me wrong…I still have my nasty, jaded moments, too, but something about being completely in love with my husband, having two rock star puppies, and finally, coming to grips with the reality that “yes, I can have a happy life” has changed my attitude.
Enjoy the silver lining.